on being in love

being in love is like……….doing a presentation in class……
while you’re naked………….then you wake up from
the nightmare………just to go to class and do a presentation……
and suddenly you’re naked……then you do it again and again…
……love doesn’t necessarily make you do stupid things but
……it makes you want to do really stupid things like……
drink a bottle of nail polish……steal from your mum to buy a motorcycle
……tell your girlfriend you love them so much you want to be alive.
stupid stupid………stupid but worth it somehow……
is it even a romantic gesture to say…“you are so cool and smart
you make being alive a little less unbearable”
or is it just really weird………i love you i flushed my last xanax
it’s so humiliating to be in love i feel like an oversized toddler…
…………have you ever eaten a family sized pizza on your own
then immediately felt bad for eating a family sized pizza on your own
but also kind of victorious because you proved………something
……not sure what maybe that nothing can stop you…
your hunger has no limits you can make yourself sick you
……can do everything as long as it means flirting with death…
being in love is like your parents……catching you having sex…
and staring till you cum……but you can’t cum with them staring…
so it never ends……being in love i don’t know……i don’t know…

 

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helga floros likes pepsi max and baking muffins. they have work in occulum, peach mag, witchcraft magazine, & elsewhere. they tweet @helgafloros

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